xanga is dying.  it's so sad.  i don't want it to.  i love writing about everything i do and then looking back on it when i get older. hahahaha i'm so gay.

gahlee things have been different lately.  i look at my life right now and it's just ... dang.  where did it go and how the hell did it get here?  i'm not complaining.  not at all.  not ONE bit.  things are pretty much perfect right now .

i think it's gonna be auburn kids.  gah i gotta make my choice ASAP and florida's just ... not as idk ... auburn!  i have my heart set on that place so i'm gonna go with my heart.
holy crap i'm going to college .

i love my friends.  every single one of em.  i've taken a total of 0 pictures in the last few weeks pretty much cause i'm lazy and pretty much cause my camera's a PIECE and i finally got a new one yesterday sooo pictures of my own should be coming soon.

aannndddd the newest thing.  matias.  my boyfriend.  oh wow ... boyfriend.  now when was the last time i said THAT?  i don't do boyfriends, right?  i date a guy for about a month and get bored, RIGHT?  nah .... not matias.  not yet.  i love being with him.  he's so much fun and so sweet.  i just hate that he goes to ga state and is forever away.  i can do it tho.  he's worth it.
pony and cody and matt and alllll the boys [minus davis logan and devin] met him and they approve .

 
& that's him.  it's pretty much the gayest and oldest picture ever and he looks like the biggest goober ever hahahaha but i love it.

the past weekends have been piiiiimp.  wednesday [yes i know that's not the weekend] is trivia night up at loco's.  friday is some stevie b's then hanging out with people, winning some tickets, jackpot, winning the lottery, going back to jennifer's for the night, wedding crashers .... REVERSE .... SEE YA! .... all that good stuff.  i pretty much love devin long with all my heart and trip and myself are getting married.  or already are married .... whatever.

the following pictures are super random.  from random nights and wekeends and the only pictures i could find.  iiiiiiii like em.

me & courtney are mega cute.

me & lauren are cute tooooooo.

whatchu know bout dat charlie's angeeeeels.

we are the heirs to the thronw of mcdonald's .

devin & myself WOULD have the same hair.

bobby o'shea....i'm ready to get DRUNK.

spring break 06 is gonna be unbelivable.
talk about the perfect group of people with 2 condos in daytona.
[minus ponyboy.  eff baseball .]

theatre convention is this friday and saturday. I AM SO EFFIN EXCITED.  and gay i know.  but that means missing stevie b's with the crew friday.  and anything else crazy crunk that goes on saturday.  so sad.  i will miss errbody.

twins, i love you guys.

garner if you're reading this.  well, you WOULD be reading this.
and jessica and jennifer .... i WOULD love yall .

superbowl sunday, SAWEET.

i turned in dr.wilson's damn 12 page research paper today.  and i am DONE .

it's wedensday.  so i'm gonna go rest up before some trivia action.
peace.

i have WAY too many pictures to not update this junk.  with all the crazy stuff going on, it's hard to not wanna share!

stuff has been preettyyy much amazing.
i couldn't ask for better friends.
or a better boy .
or effin better times!
and i can't effin believe that we have one semester left of this.  that just BOGGLES MY MIND.  that it's now 2006 .... and we're graduating in 2006.  i mean WOW.  it's scary and exciting and weird and all of the above.  and as much as i can't wait for college, i know i'll miss this.  i know i took this for granted these past 4 years.

ok, enough of the gay senitmental junk .

new years.  oh my god.  that had to have been the craziest night of the break.  i went absolutley insane hahahaha.  i remember falling down the stairs, dancing, and never laughing so hard in my entire life.  and with a start like that .... 06 is gonna be one hell of a year .

a few of the crew....

senior girls are sexxy.

some of the boys .... biscuit is pretty much dominating the entire picture.

few of us after dinner junk....

kathleen, jenn, jessica, mandy & meeeeee.

twins me & lauren.  i know .... how cute are we?

me & my twiny twins .

me & garrett.  talk about his effin perfect teeth....

me & my BOOOOOO.

me & ponyboy.  ohhh trip how i love you....

there should never be more than 2 forks at dinner.

me (lookin like a half-smile retard) & jenn.

garner & me are VERY happy (and bright).

who else cept matt would have the camo crutches ... i love it.

don't worry, i have more pictures.  cause i know that was not nearly enough.

my digital camera likes to die and then randomly come back to life.  i hate it.  but last night, the last night of effin winter break 05, cooley had a little something soooo i stopped by.  it wasn't too many people, just chillin.  i left around 1 cause i was tired and gay and came home.  passseeddd out.  my camera however did decide to be alive at that point in time.

that just looked way to cool for me not to put up.

oh zachary how iiiiii love you.

yay jessica marie.  my best friend nigga .

whenever i get a picture of cunninghamn, i gotta put that junk up ... he never takes pictures.  and we are SO gangster, especially meeee with his hat.

there's a lotta of other stuff i should have pictures from but i don't.  i think that's enough for now anyway ... more than enough.  god, no one wants to look at those.  i just like sharing.

hanna marie-oh goodness.  it feels good to be back.  feels good to be talking again.  i've missed you like crazy and the rest of senior years with us is gonna be fantastic .

i finally got all my crazy boy junk figured out .... i think i got it all figured out anyway.  i hope.  matias .  i love spending time with him.  i don't really need to go into details because i just don't, but that ... is going great.

this winter break was just crazy .... in so many ways.

OH .... definitely got a job at abercrombie by accident HAHAHA oops.  long story, but pretty much ... i have 2 jobs and that's not good.  i can't do that!  and abercrombie pays like 50 cents an hour so nahhh ... i'm good.

i miss my peets.  they don't get back from hawaii until effin friday .

that's pretty much been it.  things have been ... too good to be true.
just been hanging out with everyone .... having some good, nah ... GREAT times.
and i'm not gonna lie .... i'll probably update in a a few weeks or month or so.
peaacceeee.

xanga is getting old.  like forreal.  this is gonna be my last entry for a LONG time.  it's just pointless.  and it's probably not gonna have too many fun pictures or anything.  sorry.

i just have stuff on my mind.  and i wanna get it out.  that's what this thing supposed to be for anyway right?

been working a lot.  too much.  i hate it.  bass pro is SO BUSY this time of year, everyone buying all bullets and junk.  who hunts over christmas?  i mean damn.
BUT cory pretty much did the sweetest thing in the entire effin world and left me roses on my car after work one night .  that made my week.  what a sweetheart .  that boy .... really knows how to treat a girl.

thank you.  for unbreaking my heart.  even a little bit.

i've been thinking a lot about stuff ... about people.  about how i let certain people effect my entire mood and my entire day and i SO shouldn't.  i don't know why i let jerks bring me down, it's ridiculous.  and i plan on not letting that happen anymore.  gotta surround yourself with the people that make you feel good about yourself .... think about that one.

so yeah, i'm a little confusing when it comes to relationships and boy junk.  i'll figure it all out soon enough.  and for now, dating people and just having fun .... is a good thing .
or pimpin ... you know, whatever .

i'm just so happy winter break is here.  i cannnot WAIT until new years and the 06 throwdown.  jennifer is so cute and i love that she organizes everything.  it's gonna be all black and white .... how PIMP is that.
06 - nahh we don't play nukka.

those right there.  are best friends.

we all spent the night at my house friday.  it was a good night.  sometimes, you just need a night with the girls.  a night of staying up til about 3 getting evveeryyytthhiinnngggg out.  a night of my dad not coming home til 430 AM.  the man parties more than i do!

i just want yall to know .... along with jessica marie and amber and davis and zach and logan and good lord i could make this out to like 40 people but to all my best friends, yall are fantastic.  i wouldn't be me without you.  and this is insanley gay what i'm typing right here but it's all good.  yall love me for it.

and speaking of jessica marie.
you are my world.  you know that, right?

me and jpeet hung out with cory and clint and like 600 of their brookwood friends saturday night.  THAT was a lot of fun.  those boys are awesome .... they really know how to have a good time.  and jpeeeeeet ... i love you booboo.

amanda and myself had a fun little shopping day.  buncha CRAZY junk happened but amanda ... haha i love you almost as much as i love creepy guys in trucks hitting on us?  uh what?

thank you.  you pretty much solidified my decision and proved that what i chose, was right.  yeah it's still hard to get over it and over you, but that's it right there.  i'm getting over it.

ok.  this ended up being a lot longer than i expected it to.  peace .

i can't believe finals are here.  holy eff.  where is senior year going?  it's kinda scary.  me and jessica were talking about how fast evreything is going.  and how different everything is.  i never would've predicted senior year to be this craaazzzyyyy.

last week is one big blur.
i'm trying to remember.

uhhhmmm .... i remember cory and clint and like 2 of their friends coming over 1 night at like midnight to visit me.  and i had to sneak outside to see then.  and it was really cold.  those boys .... are crazy.

and then .... thursday i think it was?  i went over to logan's.  and me and him and brandon watched dukes of hazzard. then hit up some wendy's.  and picked up court went to see people in the chorus show with pony tooooo.

i probably did other stuff.  i go over to the twins' house pretty much every night and i know i did that at least twice.  i love twins .  i can't wait to make gingerbread houses and have sleepovers and watch movies and ahhhh i love winter break.

   
& i'm begging you
i'm begging you
i'm begging you to be my escape.

friday was fun.  basketball game vs. b-wood.  we won both.  it was nice.  and then a bunch of us hit up taco bell.  i came home after that and crashed.  ehh, nothing went on anyway.

my camera died for a good 6 days.  that killed me.  i couldn't take pictures for what seemed like the longest time ever.  and then finally saturday night it came back to life.  juuuuuuuuuuust in time for jennifer's uga party.  like everyone doesn't know ... jennifer, garner, david, dustin aannndddd tj ALL GOT INTO UGA.  i'm so proud of them .  i think i should've applied.  hmmm.  if i actually wanted to stay in state.

but yeah.  after work saturday, i went to jennifer's .

me & massaquoi.  he is so gangster i swear....  and i take so ugly pictures i swear ....

not only did i get his hat, ohh but i got a kiss too.  sorry girls but, devin long is taken .

that is so close up i mean daaaaaaaang.  me and the husband .

twiiiiiiiiins.  reppin that bass pro shops WHAAAAT.  haha they came straight after work.

other twiiiiiiiiiins.  oh where would i be without my peets....

wutchu kno bout dat c-high football shaaaaaaaaaawty.

me and garn ... actin a fooooool!

klair bear, peety, and garner.  silly girls.

i just now realzized that i got 0 pictures of jennifer.  well what the ff.  good job me.  and i didn't get any of amber either!!  jeeeeeez.  i mean after all it really was amber's party .

sunday i worked.  well not really.  i was operator allll day so i pretty much sat around and did nothing for about 8 hours.   was suppose to read that effin econ book.  ha.  no one read it.  i'm talking about ... no one.  court loser didn't even buuuuuy the book.  i didn't feel as bad.

i ate a lot this past weekend.  like TOO much.  i'm one of those people that eats their feelings.  when i'm sad or whatever .... i feel that empty space up with food.  no bueno.

it's absolutley ridiculous.  i have about 400 other people who are 10 times better and care 10 times more about me and i'm having a problem letting you go?  please.

i don't wanna study for finals.  calculus is the only one i'm worried about.

this week is gonna be fun.
especially wednesday.  i absoliutley have a lunch date with the amandas.  you're jealous.

i told my brother about all the colleges i've applied to so far.  auburn, tennessee, clemson, blah blah blaahhh .... he told me he doesn't want me to stay in the south and "limit myself."  soooooo, i'm applying to university of southern cali this week.  oh gosh .

secret santa with senior girls [whoa say that 5 times fast] is gonna be fun .

hmmm that is some shady messed up junk right there.

wow.  that was a long en.  and yet i still have like 72 other things on my mind.
but i have to go.  and work.  so peace.

this past week felt really short.  but my god each day felt like it dragged on forever.  especially 1st and 6th period.  i wanted to die.

you were supposed to be different.

me and davis spent the day tuesday after school.  went shopping, hit up some mickey d's and then watched the hooper games.  i love davis.  he makes me laugh.

AND I SAW CALE .  he came over wednesday for a little bit and we sat and talked.  i miss him more than anything.

thursday was jessica night.  we visited court up at bass pro.  and then had la cucaracha.  or cuernevaca.  whatever you wanna call it.  jessica marie i love you.

my stomach is in huge knots right now.  i feel disgusting.

friday night i hung out with cory.  he goes to brookwood.  we were supposed to go out to ocharley's and then see a movie buuuut we both definitely ended up at different ocharley's hahahaha.  that was great.  so we just went and watched walk the line.  and then hit up some steak and shake.  it was fun.

i came home with the intention of going to sleep early cause i had work saturday.  nahhhh we all knew that wasn't gonna happen.  so i went over to logan's and hung out with him, pony, davis, and beau beau.  those boys are crazy.  but i love em .  they do their best to take care of me.

saturday i worked.  it was long.

then came saturday night ... ohhh goodness.  that was CRAZY.  i loved it.  saturday night was exactly what i needed after this week and after everything that's been going on.  i went and stopped by taylor's first and then me and her and a few of us headed over to jennifer's house for the night.  things got IINNSSAANNNEE.  and iiiiiiiiiiii loved it .

me & malpal wanted to breakdance.

and then so did garner .

ssshhhh it's tha FIREMAN.  ohhh ponyboy you're a REAL OG & i love you.

so this is probably THE ugliest picture of me EVER but whattevveerrrr.  me and tay are ROOOOCKIN trip and matt's hats.

haha it's a loooong story.  i want me some garner pilat!!

jessica & jennifer.  lookin all sexxy and what nooooot.

i wish i would've remembered to take more pictures.  of peets and logan and matt and cory and morgan and just errrbody!!  i wish i would've remeberd more in general haha.  needless to say work sunday was pretty much HELL.  my entire body hurt and it had to be the busiest day in the universe.  i pick the worst weekends to stay up.

you are so shady. ew.

today after school i went and hung out with cory and clint.  work kids from the b-wood.  they crack me up.  i love hanging out with them .  clint i swear to god looks EXACTLY like jesse mccartney.  it's INSANE.  after that i headed over to the twins house.  and hung out with them and garn .

finally hit up that starbucks with skeels.  we killed it.  i love you scootie.  times a trillion.

cause if you don't .... someone else will.
think about it.

i talked to schulein today.  he called me after school.  i miss him.  we talked about all my drama and boys and junk and it helped.  things are looking clearer.

i'm really tired.  and stressed out.  and need sleep.  peace.

OHHHH anyone watch the brookwood vs. lowndes game?  i mean uh the brookwood BEATDOWN. haha i loooooved it !!